Ugh

So today we went to your pediatric check up. Started off great your weight matched your birthday. You weighed in at 11.11 pounds and your birthday is 11-11-11 so that was just way cool. You smiled and giggled for Dr. Ehmann which was totally awesome. You were an amazing 24 inches and a head circumference of 16inches and your hemoglobin was perfect. Your oxygen was just a little low so they are gonna send over an oxygen monitor for another sleep study. Now for the bad we have noticed a hunch on your back and it seems to have been getting more pronounced so we asked and doc is gonna put in for X-ray's to be done it seems you may have scoliosis or kyphosis or something not sure yet but it's definitely something. "deep sigh" I believe I'm becoming numb. I'm trying baby moon I'm trying I just feel like a huge failure as a mother and I'm sorry. One day I hope that I just have to worry about you and your sisters not medical bills or medical insurance or whether or not to buy food or pay a bill. I worried about finances before but never like this I didn't have to choose just sometimes late. This sucks!!!!